As I sit in my seat the “hopefuls” parade before me singing their song and hoping they get chosen. I feel like Simon Cowell.
I have a task to do. The result will be a team of musicians and singers with the right voice and style for the service I am putting together. The goal? Quality, maturity, spirituality, with a view to produce the best experience for the “audience” or, rather, congregation. OR, more spiritually speaking..to have the best team to lead people into a powerful worshp experience… OR, rather, to usher the church into the presence of God.
My motives are pure. Well, as pure as our motives, as humans, can get.
Now, with perspective, I look back at the people who I have said “no” to. I hear myself saying “I’m sorry. It’s a no, but maybe you can join the choir” or “I’m sorry, it would be great if you can go get training and then try again.” Ouch! The unintended message being, “I’m sorry, you’re not good enough..” or “I’m sorry, you’re not hip enough…”
Say what?! What have I done?
I’m sorry, Sally, (name changed to protect…) for giving you the message that your desire to use your voice for ministry in the church is not quite good enough. That, at least, it’s not good enough for people to hear. Just blend in with everyone else. It was never my intention to hurt you. It was only my intention to bring “quality” to the ministry.
I’m reminded of, Deanna, (again, name changed) who had a beautiful heart for the Lord and ministry, sang as if she were in God’s prescence, and loved people. She was “cut” from the worship team because her voice quality just wasn’t up to par. She WAS asked by another worship leader on various occasions to sing on the team ONLY because when she sang praise it inspired people like no other person on the team.
I’m reminded of Paul saying “sing to each other in psalms and spiritual songs…” and “everyone bring a song, a teaching, a prophecy…”
I wonder if I would have allowed some of the people Paul was talking about to actually do that!
How much did I miss out on? How many messages did I squash by not allowing voices to be heard.
More importantly, what was God thinking.